So I sit here...

So I feel like my life is just an existence. I am sick so much that I have given up on alot at this point. I'm not who I used to be...I used to be more outgoing loving what I do and now I could care less, my life is falling apart...I call out so much at work I am really lucky to still have my job which scares the living shit out of me...If I don't keep this job I am completely screwed. I'm barely making ends meet something has got to change and like NOW! I need more excitement in my life, I don't go do anything and that needs to change too...All I do is sit around the damn house. Never thought I would say this but I'm looking forward to ice on the waters to go SMELTING :) Thats one thing I have always loved and would be nice to go again. Can't wait for the kids to get home, they are the reason I get out of bed everyday...They are the only reason I smile these days...Well I guess thats it for now...